Surrender 5: Just Around the River Bend

I’m calling it today, my theme song for 2016. I asked during the month of December, “What is my song for next year?” Sometimes, I know before the end of the year…and sometimes I don’t. The song is usually the last component to be added to my theme for the new year. 

 

I love music. When I’m alone in the car or cleaning house or cooking, I have music playing on my iPod or iPhone. Soundtracks are my favorites to listen to. So it’s not surprising that I get my own song each year to accompany my word. 

I came across the mention of a song, Just Around the River Bend, from Disney’s animated  film Pocahontas, while reading an article online. My awareness perked up and I listened to the song on YouTube. I liked the song…yet I wasn’t sure. And what was it with me and songs from animated features? Two years ago my song was Let it Go, from Frozen. 

                      Just Around the River Bend

So I asked for confirmation that this was the perfect song, and delayed claiming it. In this year of surrender, I could allow the right song to come to me, at the right time. 

Two weeks have passed. I haven’t received confirmation in the form of seeing the words River Bend written anywhere. Nor have I seen clips unexpectedly of this older Disney movie. However, today I realized that I am humming and singing this song all the time. I’ve woken up with the song playing in my head. While driving I’ll suddenly realize I’ve been humming it. I can’t get the song out of my mind, after listening to it only once two weeks ago! 

Today I was reminded of a time years ago, when I had asked the Divine what my soul name could be. What name captured who I was becoming, who I was growing into? A word, Mithril, the valuable, strong, silvery substance from Middle-earth, kept popping into my mind. I’d think “That’s odd!” and push it away. I kept asking. I kept hearing the word Mithril. It took three weeks before I made the connection. Ohhh….my soul name is Mithril. 

It only took two weeks to get it this time! Just Around the River Bend is my song. I think I initially passed on it because a few lines of the song don’t quite fit, but the concept does. Pocahontas is choosing between living a safe life…or an adventurous life. I can relate to that. 

 

Here are some of the lyrics:

What I love most about rivers is, You can’t step in the same river twice. The water’s always changing, always flowing. But people, I guess, can’t live like that, We all must pay a price. To be safe, we lose our chance of ever knowing. 

What’s around the river bend. Waiting just around the river bend. 

I look once more just around the river bend, Beyond the shore somewhere past the sea. Don’t know what for, why do all my dreams extend

Just around the river bend, just around the river bend. 

Should I choose the smoothest course, Steady as the beating drum? Is all my dreaming at an end? Or do you still wait for me, Dream Giver

Just around the river bend?

This morning I listened again to the song, my heart and mind open, no resistance. At the end, as Pocahontas sang, Or do you still wait for me, Dream Giver, just around the river bend, my eyes filled with tears and my heart began to beat faster. 

Yes. Oh yes, Dream Giver, I hear your call, just around the river bend. I’m listening. Thank you, for giving me this, the perfect song. 

  
 

Journey 183: Personal Theme Song

My grandson Dayan and I had an interesting discussion today, about theme songs. As we were concluding a three day Doctor Who marathon, Dayan let me listen to his new Doctor Who ringtones on his phone. They are so cool…I loved them! That in turn led us to discussing the theme songs for the 10th Doctor, the 11th Doctor, Rose Tyler, Martha and Donna. Every character in Doctor Who has their own theme song, as does the TARDIS. As we watched episodes this afternoon, we would exchange knowing glances as one of the character’s songs played subtly in the background.

The 10th Doctors Theme Song

Dayan and I agree that the soundtrack to a TV series or a movie enhances the viewing experience. During our marathons for The Lord of the Rings and The Hobbit, we isolated the themes for each character, including the dragon Smaug, and the One Ring, listening for them during the films. One of the reasons I enjoy listening to soundtracks so much is because they are, essentially, the themes from the characters, the locations, and the events, woven together to form one beautiful extended song that stirs my memory and my heart, and pulls forth emotion.

My conversation with Dayan stayed with me after I left him today. I thought about what the “soundtrack” to my life sounds like, and how, if I could hear it with my physical ears, it too would be woven from themes from the characters in my story, the locations and events. There would be stirring ballads, uplifting trills and slower, more somber melodies, all telling of my adventure called Life.

But what would my personal theme song sound like? Every time I entered the day, a room, a situation, what melody would announce my arrival? That’s what I have been thinking about today. I’ve played those “What Would Your Theme Song Be?” games on Facebook. I get songs like “RESPECT” or “Walking on Sunshine”. Those games are fun to do, but the songs don’t resonate with me.

If I had to choose today, the song I would select that best represents me, would be “Going Where My Heart Will Take Me”, by Russell Watson. I became familiar with this song years ago, as the theme song for Enterprise, a Star Trek spin off series. It captures my journey well.

Going Where My Heart Will Take Me

And if I selected a musical piece, without words, as my theme song, I am drawn to the theme from Rivendell, in The Hobbit movies. This music reaches deeply into my heart, every time I hear it. It centers me, slows me down, lifts my spirit, all powerful responses to the beautiful melody.

Rivendell Theme Song

As I considered those two musical selections, I was aware that both are already theme songs for something else. Slowly, I came to the realization that it is time to create my own theme song, or perhaps, time to allow my own music to be set free. I will have to hear it first, before I can share it, before I can capture it, in notes. I have limited musical ability, but I don’t think that matters. What’s important is that I allow it to come forth, and recognize it as my own.

As I was driving home from being with my grandson, I allowed my phone to randomly play music on shuffle. The first song that played was called August’s Rhapsody, from the movie August Rush. This film is about the very things that I was pondering: the gift of music, the themes woven into something soulful and beautiful that represent life and the journey. At the end of the song, August says, “The music is all around us. All you have to do…is listen.” I got goose bumps. How perfect. I am listening….

August’s Rhapsody